Anorexia has always been my poison of choice, and after many many MANY years in therapy, a few hospital stays, over a year of my life in total spent in psichiatric institutions [before I was even 18, by the way], I know what I am talking about.

The girl in the picture is not me [I took that picture from google because to this day I still don't think I ever got that skinny, even though I did, and I have a million health issues because of it], but it's reality for thousands of people around the world.

...but I'm now popping up to say: HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! and MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! and HAPPY BIRTHDAY to everyone whose birthday I missed. I really do love you all.

Everything is going fabulous, I am almost a pro at Italian now (which I had never ever had to be fluent at before, but having a husband and 5 daughters who took to it like fish to water, I kinda had to become a pro), and I finally have all my babies inrolled in school and other activities.


The move itself was HELL, and I was so busy I forgot to eat a lot of the time and then I landed myself in the hospital, but I am okay now and not overexhausting myself at all. Mr. Faith has been great about everything and he's doing awesome at work. We are thinking about buying the house we live innow, because it fits us so well and it even has space for that last baby we're been talking about. (After next baby though, we are DONE).

I haven't been able to keep up with fandoms or the FList or anything like it but whenever something interesting happens, my girl bowlerhat_girl tells me about it and we have some squee-age. I miss her like hell. I miss nana too but that's it. I am actually glad I moved. It's as if like I left my baggage physically behind.

I will try and pop up again sometimes soon, but do not expect fic or anything of the sort from me because I am convinced my writingdays are over and behind me.


Love you ALL,

FAITH :D

I'm moving to Rome after Christmas. *gasp*

Mr. Faith got a VERY IMPORTANT JOB, and it's a great opportunity for us as a family, especially for my girls, to get in touch with their roots. I want them all to always feel like they beling, because I never did, and I really think that this is the right thing to do for us.

I am nervous as fuck though, wouldn't you be? FOR REAL? (Much hand-holding by my girl JJ was had, but now I have stopped hyperventilating and I am very okay with out decision.)

Of course this means that our baby plans will have to be postponed for a year or two, but that's fine because with Miranda (aka Baby #5) we have our hands full right now, it wouldn't have worked anyway.

Wish me luck? I might be even more scarce than I have been till now for a while,but remember that I love you all and that I miss you fiercely!!!


HUGGLES!!!

From my darling friend bowlerhat_girl, who gives me fic whenever I want, I bring you this. Yes, she is giving away fic and she is a wicked good writer so you should ALL go and leave her some prompts, because you will definitely be happy with the results.

Fic-Or-Treat 2008



Want some candy y'all?

So my mother never took me trick-or-treating, so I have issues. And thus, I love this holiday something fierce, so here you have it. Plus, slybrunette made me do it. She has ways.

Instructions for FoT:

1) Leave your prompts in this format: character or pairing/prompt word or song lyric or situation/any special notes or preferences
2) Fandoms: Lost, Grey's Anatomy, Dirty Sexy Money and ONE TREE HILL. I can also write House up to S3, and RPF, depending on who does the asking.
3) There is no maximum, you can ask for one fic or you can ask for twenty, but I'll probably just write you one.
4) Characters/pairings not eligible for request: none of the Lost tailies, no Micheal [Lost] and no Hahn [Grey's Anatomy]. Everything else is fair game.
5) I'll really try to give everyone some candy fic..
6) If you ask for either Karen or Izzie centric fics, you're likely to get it. Just sayin'. Also, Brooke Davis is love, I just thought you should know.
7) May or may not be Halloween related. Your choice.

I'll be accepting prompts from October 31, 2008 at 9:00 PM local time till November 3, 2008 at 9:00 PM local. I'll let you know in a comment when I have your words all ready to go.

Everyone who wants fic can ask for it because I need to start writing again and prompts are a really good way to get inspired.


Happy Halloween and happy prompting!!!

Yesterday passed and I still feel the same. That can't be good.

But.

It's like when you're drowning and once you hit the bottom you know you can at least attempt to swim up. I think. I'm not good with putting feelings into words lately.

Thanks to all of you guys, who make things a little bit better just by being there and especially to bowlerhat_girl who let's me get all over the place with my emotional tirades. Really.

I am catching up with months and months of fic, starting with the always awesome bowlerhat_girl. If you haven't read her stuff, go, do it now and leave her tons of feedback because she is going through some rough times right now and she could definitely use some major cheering up.

Stars Falling on our Heads is a freaking fantastic Harry/Hermione fic. I am more of a Harry/Ginny girl myself but this one was about the coolest angsty future fic I've read in a while. 

Butterflies like chains is heart-breaking, in a good way, in a way that makes you ache for this character who really didn't ask - or want - to be Aaron's mother. It's Kate-fic of the best kind, JJ gets inside her head in a really scary way.

Or go check out her Kate/Sayid fic, the Night Belongs to You, that makes terrifying amounts of sense. Or my personal favourites, already gone away [Kate/Sam and the daddy issues of awesome] and all because of you [Kate/Tom that grabs you from the first line with its foretold tragedy].

Really, in the end, anything by bowlerhat_girl  is bound to make you think deep thought and awe you with awesomness. If anything, do it as a favour to me, cause she's one of my best friends and I'm not above shameless pimping to get her to cheer up.

away is a relative term
there’s an invisible hand around her throat and her lungs fill with the tears she hasn’t allowed herself to shed.
spoilers for the S4 finale.
psych_30: #8 phobia – Juliet

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( I can’t )

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psych_30 table is h e r e.

black holes in the mirror
begging forgiveness and promising he’ll never do it again, all of which he’s said before and will certainly say again. she doesn’t believe one word.
spoilers for Not in Portland
psych_30  : #3 addiction – Juliet

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psych_30  table is h e r e.

For my character's mini-soundtrack meme, go leave a comment if you want to ask for a character. (No one's asked for Meredith yet, by the way *whistles*)


Izzie Stevens - for xyliette

Bruised - Ben Folds Five
Happy Working Song - Amy Adams
Beautiful - Christina Aguilera


Addison Montgomery - for milk_and_glass

Why - Annie Lennox [Live]
California - Wave
Razor - Foo Fighters


Juliet Burke - for bowlerhat_girl

This must be the place - Talking Heads
Downtown - Petula Clark
Sweetest Decline - Beth Orton


Temperance Brennan - for tidbit2008

Ooh Child - Beth Orton
Breakable - Ingrid Michaelson
Daughters - John Mayer


Greg House - for holycitygirl

Breath In Breath out - Mat Kearney
Four Horsemen - The Clash
Baba O'Reiley - The Who


Meredith Grey - for darkandtwisty02 & chicleeblair

She's not innocent - Antigone Rising
Clean & Sober - Anya Marina
Sunday Best - Augustana
Daughters - John Mayer


Allison Cameron - for phelipa [A million thanks to my best girl JJ for these songs!]

Portions for Foxes - Rilo Kiley
Breathe - Michelle Branch
You Wouldn't Like Me - Tegan and Sara
And a bonus, for the long wait: Love Song - Sara Bareilles


:)

I wrote this forever ago and I haven’t posted because I’ve never felt like reading through it again but I’ve promised this fic to at least three people and I thought I should deliver. It deals, somewhat tangentially, with the subject of abortion, and it’s, according to me, in character for someone like Temperance Brennan to do this so bare with me.

I would really appreciate it if someone gave me a title for this, please? Pretty please? With a cherry on top?


Untitled.
Author: Faith
Summary: She climbs off and vomits, supporting herself with one hand firmly planted on the hood of your car. You wonder then if you know before she does.
AN: No specific spoilers, this could be anywhere from S1 to S3. This is my take on Brennan getting pregnant and beware, there are no happily ever afters to be had here. If you’re not Pro-Choice, I strongly recommend against reading this.


( It’s a simple explanation for a very complicated matter. )





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you think that would hurt
Tom is a nice guy but even that doesn’t mean she wouldn’t kill him right this second if it meant she could take his place in that sub.
spoilers for S4
psych_30: #23 vicarious – Juliet

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(  Juliet watches from afar as Tom says his goodbyes and she grips the rails of the pier with one hand, the other at her side, fist clenched. )


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psych_30 table is h e r e.

burn a weak heart
this is your punishment.
spoilers for season 4. thanks to lenina20 for the title help and the encouragement, as always.
psych_30: #26 obsession – Juliet

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( home is where I want to be )


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psych_30 table is h e r e.

third degree burns
...tries to imagine what Jack felt when he touched the raw mark on her lower back
psych_30: #16 fetish – Juliet

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( Kate’s back is smooth and soft. )


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psych_30 table is h e r e.

ignorance is fault
to look at her mistakes in the eye, to sit in front of the woman whose husband she got killed
spoilers for 4x06 The Other Woman
psych_30: #1 transference – Juliet

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( Their sessions consist of staring at each other in complete silence now… )


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psych_30 table is h e r e.

psych_30 : Juliet Burke - Lost

1.	Transference	2.	Daddy Issues	3.	Addiction	4.	Ego/Id	5.	Multiple Personality
6.	Inferiority Complex	7.	Nature vs. Nurture	8.	Phobia	9.	Sociopath	10.	Approach-Avoidance
11.	Castration Anxiety	12.	Collective Unconscious	13.	Delusion	14.	Fixation	15.	Halo Effect
16.	Fetish	17.	Group Think	18.	Instinct	19.	Separation Anxiety	20.	Learned Helplessness
21.	Rationalizaton	22.	Libido	23.	Vicarious	24.	Skinner Box	25.	Placebo Effect
26.	Obsession	27.	Catharsis	28.	Free Association	29.	Repression	30.	Denial

For tidbit2008, who wanted something little that asks too many questions and this is where my mind goes when I think of that. It's Izzie with a child and coda to It's the Mommy Thing. ( Yes, I know, but why? )



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I sat down meaning to write down my new Kate fic and my first Juliet's psych_30 fic because I am all about Lost these days and those two are highly ficcable. Instead my brain wandered and I got this, which is all over the place. But I have a thing for Five Things fics, even if this wasn't thought through.


Title: Doesn't Change a Thing
Author: Faith V. [faith_chaos]
Summary: Five Decissions Izzie Stevens Never Made

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( this may be the hardest way but it's the right one )



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I wasn't going to post but xyliette made me do it. She has ways.

Title: It’s the Mommy Thing
Author: Faith faith_chaos
Summary: By the time Meredith is 24 weeks along, Alex has moved out and you start knitting tiny baby booties for Baby Grey.
AN: I’m on an Izzie kick, and I like it very much. Bare with me, alright? Baby angst ahead.

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( You hated every single kick and every little movement for the simple fact that you couldn’t help but loving it already. )

Title: White gorilla's dream [2/2]
Author: Faith [faith_chaos]
Summary: Sort of like how you’d be so much happier if Lexie was not here, if she wasn’t the kind of person – your kind of person – who hangs out in a bar instead of going home.
AN: For anna_in_the_sky, who wanted "Lexie and Meredith get drunk together at a bar" and I owed her the second part. Part one here.

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( You were never afraid of the dark. )


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So, I lost my last prompt firday requests and I haven't done them again yet, but I wrote other stuff instead.

For xyliette [#2] and milk_and_glass [#5]: [Izzie] It's been a year and it still hurts ALL THE TIME. ( It could go like this... )

And because I've always loved these: ( My Addison... )

I'm gonna go watch some Lost now. That show is like crack. *shakes head at self* I'm gonna watch What Kate Did, and the title tells me I'll probably enjoy the hell out of it.

And I still need to look for a Kate icon, dammit.

Anybody want to pimp this? I'm gonna go, Lost DVDs await me.